Why don’t you think you were able to write anything?

it just didn’t happen.  i looked at the screen- on my phone, on my computer – and i couldn’t think of a single thing to say.

Does this happen often to you when you write?

no.  usually i just start writing.  although i usually don’t necessarily sit down and force myself to write about such a specific thing.  usually, if i don’t have an idea, i’ll just start doing something else, and then i figure out what i want to talk about once i start writing.

And you couldn’t do that this time?

well, you wanted me to talk to ‘myself’ after the spelling bee when i was like nine or ten.  it’s a pretty specific goal.

Did you try to write about something else?  To get yourself going?

yes, actually.  although, it doesn’t work like that.  usually, if i start writing something, it leads me to a different place.  i don’t necessarily try to control where i go with it, so it wouldn’t have helped, necessarily to try to talk about something else as a way to get back to this thing i was supposed to write about.  but, yeah, i did write something else.  i wrote a couple dialogues between you and i.  first, about you asking me to write a dialogue between myself now and myself then, and then also one where we talked about how i wasn’t able to do it.  lol.

How very meta.

“dialogue dialogue dialogue.”

What did we say during this conversation?

it was just exactly like this, actually.  except your breasts were bigger.

What was my reaction to your ‘failure’?

they were just like pow!

I understand.  You’re doing the thing where you avoid answering my question, though.

you asked me why i wasn’t able to talk to myself and be supportive in the same way i can for xoxo or my students.

What did you say?

i left it hanging at that moment, just ended it with one of these dumbass galaxy images i like to use.  like i’m deep or something.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I know you’re trying to be cute, “ironically” joking about my breasts, but it isn’t cute or clever.  It’s not cool at all, and I know you know that.  It’s immature and disrespectful, and you wouldn’t even think of saying that to me in real life.

i know.

Pow.